8 years ago

8 years ago was I a man? Or was I a boy trapped inside of a man, trying to find out how to become a man?

Why?

I was only a drug dealer, womanizer, controller, and manipulator.

I didn’t care about life

Only what life had to offer me

Was I selfish?

Yes, selfish to compromise, utilize, fantasize or even look inside

Inside of what?

Look within my soul, look within my heart – to visualize a different perspective in my life

Not giving myself a new start

Start to what?

My desires was my best friend, destruction never will end

Cars, houses, pain, this girl, that girl

Shit, how the hell shall I begin?

I met my father one time

A man he claim he was

He was not a man

A man does not leave his child for dead

Unclothe,

Unsheltered,

Mother to struggle alone

Fuck that a coward is a life I will never condone

My inner thoughts say this

My inner thoughts say that

My system was to get money and never become a rat

Money was the root to my evil

I was blind to life

Blind to a smile

I didn’t care about the youth

8 years ago I was a menace and I didn’t give a fuck about the truth

Man-Man 

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